Having a baby completely changed my life. Becoming a mom is something that you can never take back or want to take back no matter what. Being a mom is so admirable. You become apart of someone’s life forever. That person will always love you no matter what and that is one of the best feelings in the world.
I did not always think that being a mom would be great. I was horrified. I felt like, great now I am responsible for someone for the rest of my life when I am not even sure I can be responsible for myself. I was very lucky to have such an inspiring person in my life to help me through this freight. That person is Jacob Lauver.
Jacob Lauver is my boyfriend and my sons father. When we found out that I was pregnant he was not scared, he was filled with joy. He felt so blessed and he assured me that everything was going to be fine and that we would get through this together. I wish I would have listened to him.
My biggest dilemma with being pregnant was breaking it to my parents and my family. I was scared that everyone was going to be disappointed in me. I didn’t tell my mom until I was four months along and I did not tell my dad until I was six months along. I knew I would be able to get away with not telling them because I did not live with either one of them. One night I was talking to my mom and she figured it out because I would call her crying about things that I would never be able to do again and sometimes crying about nothing. She was very disappointed. She didn’t want me to go through with it because she did not believe that I would succeed in life like she wanted. My dad just told me “Well I hope you know your life is over.” My family did not really seem to care either way. No one in my family really helped me feel better about having a baby.
As time went on I started feeling better about the situation. When I found out that he was a boy, that made me so grateful. Whenever I got an ultrasound that was astonishing because I got to see him. Buying things for him was enjoyable. I started to become happier that I was going to have a baby but I was still horrified to have to take care or someone so helpless.
My due date kept getting closer and closer and the more closer it got the more anxious I got. I did not feel prepared for him to come and I would call my mom freaking out and she would make everything seem better. She was starting to get excited for him to come and to plan my baby shower. But then something horrible happened.
One day I went to work and came home and my boyfriend told me horrible news. He had told me that my mom passed away that morning. That was the most horrible thing that ever happened to me and if I was not pregnant I probably wouldn’t be here right now. That news made me realize that I need to step up because no one is going to take care of me now except for my boyfriend and myself. I knew that I had to be vigorous so that I did not put myself into labor because I still had another month until my due date.
My due date finally came and he still did not want to come out. At that point I just wanted him out of me and into my arms. I wanted to see him so bad, plus I was disgusted with being pregnant. Two days later my water broke! I was so happy but I didn’t want to go to the hospital yet. I had some shopping to do and I wanted to eat something. After I did all of that I decided to go home and get his car seat and my hospital bags and we were off.
We got to the hospital around 10pm and he was not born until 11:45am the next day. When the doctors took him to me I was so happy that I cried. Jacob was crying to. We had waited for ten months to see this beautiful little boy and he was finally here! It was such an marvelous experience. There was no need for all of the stress and everything I went through with being scared. Being a mom isn’t as half as bad as I thought it would be. It is so amazing. I love that little boy with all my heart and there is nothing in the world that will ever change that.
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Friday, March 20, 2009
Scruples: Macbeth
1. Your car will soon need a new transmition. Do you sell it without informing the buyer? Personally I would not sell a car that will need a new transmition soon without informing the buyer. I believe transmitions are not cheap and if someone is going to put all this money into buying the car and then two weeks later it breaks down and it needs a new transmition they are not going to be very happy. They will most likely call you and scream your head or find you and demand some money back.
2. You are drafted to fight in a war you consider unjest. Do you refuse and risk prison? I would refuse to fight in a war that I did not believe in, even if it did me prison. What is the point of fighting in a war that you do not believe in? I would rather risk how ever long in prison than losing my life for something that was not in my beliefs.
3. A friend wants to copy and swap some expensive computer software with you. You know it's illegal. Do you swap? I would not swap computer software. First of all you do not know if there are viruses on the software. Second of all it is illegal and why risk time in jail over something that you could have just spent a little money on?
4. You dislike all the political parties. Do you vote? I would not vote. If you do not like any of the political parties then then why help them win. One of them is going to win anyways. I would not vote for someone that I did not think was worthy of running America for the next four to eight years.
5. A vagrant asks you for a dollar. You suspect he/she will spend it on alcohal. Do you give it anyway? I would not give the vagrant a dollar if I suspected that he/she was going to just buy alcohal with it. I am not going to support peoples bad habits. The reason that they are homeless is because they turned into an alcohalic and ruined their life. That is their fault and I do not think that I should have to pay for their bad decisions.
6. You are shaken up on an auto accident. A lawyer could get you a large settlement if you exaggerate the extent of your injuries. Do you do so? No I would not exaggerate my injuries because that is wrong. The person probably would already feel bad that they injured someone and they would already be losing a lot of money. Even though they caused the crash they might have injuries, or maybe they would need a new car.
7. You have been attending class all year. An acquaintance, who rarely shows up, asks to photocopy your notes, do you consent? Yes I would consent because you never know the circumstances of why that person was never there. Maybe they had to get surgeries, or maybe there was a loss in the family. You just never know the circumstances of why people are not there.
2. You are drafted to fight in a war you consider unjest. Do you refuse and risk prison? I would refuse to fight in a war that I did not believe in, even if it did me prison. What is the point of fighting in a war that you do not believe in? I would rather risk how ever long in prison than losing my life for something that was not in my beliefs.
3. A friend wants to copy and swap some expensive computer software with you. You know it's illegal. Do you swap? I would not swap computer software. First of all you do not know if there are viruses on the software. Second of all it is illegal and why risk time in jail over something that you could have just spent a little money on?
4. You dislike all the political parties. Do you vote? I would not vote. If you do not like any of the political parties then then why help them win. One of them is going to win anyways. I would not vote for someone that I did not think was worthy of running America for the next four to eight years.
5. A vagrant asks you for a dollar. You suspect he/she will spend it on alcohal. Do you give it anyway? I would not give the vagrant a dollar if I suspected that he/she was going to just buy alcohal with it. I am not going to support peoples bad habits. The reason that they are homeless is because they turned into an alcohalic and ruined their life. That is their fault and I do not think that I should have to pay for their bad decisions.
6. You are shaken up on an auto accident. A lawyer could get you a large settlement if you exaggerate the extent of your injuries. Do you do so? No I would not exaggerate my injuries because that is wrong. The person probably would already feel bad that they injured someone and they would already be losing a lot of money. Even though they caused the crash they might have injuries, or maybe they would need a new car.
7. You have been attending class all year. An acquaintance, who rarely shows up, asks to photocopy your notes, do you consent? Yes I would consent because you never know the circumstances of why that person was never there. Maybe they had to get surgeries, or maybe there was a loss in the family. You just never know the circumstances of why people are not there.
8. Your significant other has had an affair. You have no idea how long it's been going on. Do you leave him or her? Yes I would leave him. If he can lie to you about cheating on you what else has he been lying about. If someone is going to cheat on you how do you know that they arn't going to do it again after they swore up and down that they would never and they don't want to lose you.
9. You and a friend have liked the dame guy/girl forever. Your friend confides in you that she/he has finally gotten up the nerve to ask this person out. Two days later that person asks you out on a date. Do you say yes or no? Do you tell your friend? I would tell this guy no. No matter how long I've liked him you never know if a relationship will last. Friendships are usually forever and are a lot stronger than a relationship. I would not tell my friend because I would not want her feelings to be hurt.
10. It's your first chance to vote in a presidential election, and it is a very close contest. When checking that you are registered to vote, you realize that you registered twice. Do you vote more than once? No I would not vote more than once because that is not honest. Why do you gt two votes when other poeple only get one?
Monday, March 16, 2009
Introduction
I expect this course to be fun and interesting. Last time that I had your class you didn't make it boring. You made it fun. I like the assignments you give. The way that you are having us use this blogger website is different and it makes it interesting!
I want to learn how to understand books better. I don't really like to read very much and I think if I understood books better then maybe I would like to read. My whole family loves to read but I just do not get that into it. I think maybe sometimes that the way authors word their books confuses me sometimes. If I understood books I think I would do better in school.
My strengths in English are telling the difference between verbs, nouns, and adjectives. I am pretty good at spelling too. I use to play mad libs with my cousin when I was younger so I think that helped understand what the difference between those are. I am not the best speller in the world, but I do a pretty good job. I think I do good in these two areas.
I have a weakness with punctuation. I also having a weakness with writing. Then I having a weakness with reading. I am not always sure if I should put commas in so i just usually put them there if I think it needs to be there. I do not like writing very much either. I always feel like i get a brain freeze whenever I have to write something.
I want to learn how to understand books better. I don't really like to read very much and I think if I understood books better then maybe I would like to read. My whole family loves to read but I just do not get that into it. I think maybe sometimes that the way authors word their books confuses me sometimes. If I understood books I think I would do better in school.
My strengths in English are telling the difference between verbs, nouns, and adjectives. I am pretty good at spelling too. I use to play mad libs with my cousin when I was younger so I think that helped understand what the difference between those are. I am not the best speller in the world, but I do a pretty good job. I think I do good in these two areas.
I have a weakness with punctuation. I also having a weakness with writing. Then I having a weakness with reading. I am not always sure if I should put commas in so i just usually put them there if I think it needs to be there. I do not like writing very much either. I always feel like i get a brain freeze whenever I have to write something.
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