Personal Narrative

Having a baby completely changed my life. Becoming a mom is something that you can never take back or want to take back no matter what. Being a mom is so admirable. You become apart of someone’s life forever. That person will always love you no matter what and that is one of the best feelings in the world.

I did not always think that being a mom would be great. I was horrified. I felt like, great now I am responsible for someone for the rest of my life when I am not even sure I can be responsible for myself. I was very lucky to have such an inspiring person in my life to help me through this freight. That person is Jacob Lauver.

Jacob Lauver is my boyfriend and my sons father. When we found out that I was pregnant he was not scared, he was filled with joy. He felt so blessed and he assured me that everything was going to be fine and that we would get through this together. I wish I would have listened to him.

My biggest dilemma with being pregnant was breaking it to my parents and my family. I was scared that everyone was going to be disappointed in me. I didn’t tell my mom until I was four months along and I did not tell my dad until I was six months along. I knew I would be able to get away with not telling them because I did not live with either one of them. One night I was talking to my mom and she figured it out because I would call her crying about things that I would never be able to do again and sometimes crying about nothing. She was very disappointed. She didn’t want me to go through with it because she did not believe that I would succeed in life like she wanted. My dad just told me “Well I hope you know your life is over.” My family did not really seem to care either way. No one in my family really helped me feel better about having a baby.

As time went on I started feeling better about the situation. When I found out that he was a boy, that made me so grateful. Whenever I got an ultrasound that was astonishing because I got to see him. Buying things for him was enjoyable. I started to become happier that I was going to have a baby but I was still horrified to have to take care or someone so helpless.
My due date kept getting closer and closer and the more closer it got the more anxious I got. I did not feel prepared for him to come and I would call my mom freaking out and she would make everything seem better. She was starting to get excited for him to come and to plan my baby shower. But then something horrible happened.

One day I went to work and came home and my boyfriend told me horrible news. He had told me that my mom passed away that morning. That was the most horrible thing that ever happened to me and if I was not pregnant I probably wouldn’t be here right now. That news made me realize that I need to step up because no one is going to take care of me now except for my boyfriend and myself. I knew that I had to be vigorous so that I did not put myself into labor because I still had another month until my due date.

My due date finally came and he still did not want to come out. At that point I just wanted him out of me and into my arms. I wanted to see him so bad, plus I was disgusted with being pregnant. Two days later my water broke! I was so happy but I didn’t want to go to the hospital yet. I had some shopping to do and I wanted to eat something. After I did all of that I decided to go home and get his car seat and my hospital bags and we were off.

We got to the hospital around 10pm and he was not born until 11:45am the next day. When the doctors took him to me I was so happy that I cried. Jacob was crying to. We had waited for ten months to see this beautiful little boy and he was finally here! It was such an marvelous experience. There was no need for all of the stress and everything I went through with being scared. Being a mom isn’t as half as bad as I thought it would be. It is so amazing. I love that little boy with all my heart and there is nothing in the world that will ever change that.